How to start

[jmahal]

>:( How do you start on the road to recovery when you don't have a desire to do so, but know you need to?

JJ

[adailyreprieve]

I knew I needed change, but did not do anything about it until I suffered way beyond what I needed to suffer, if only I had not been so stubborn and prideful. Both could have killed me. Nearly did. The agony drove me to seek help. I pray you, JJ, don't have to suffer any more. If you've suffered enough, surrender and go to a meeting where you can find some of us who have been where you are, and will be able to help you. Or, at least, share with us here in this medium.

You are in my prayers. Please keep me in yours.

[CarolD]

;D? Hello? and? Welcome!? ?

I? started? AA? because? ?I? was? depressed.

No major losses in my life. outwardly.
But...
inside ? I was? dead and cold? and ? empty.
Nothing? ? ?seemed?? ?interesting? ...no? ?joy.

Do you like the person you are??
Are? you living up to your potential??

I? hope you find? a? way to? move? forward? into? sobriety...AA? is my? solution.?

[samf]

Just wanted to welcome you.

Most everyone I know had the poo beaten out of them.

But there is this other bunch, too, who didn't seem to have to suffer that far...they heard stories about other members...saw themselves in the story...before they bottomed out as far...

Today I wish I'd stopped earlier than when I did.

The people who posted ahead of me had real good suggestions...maybe just going to a few meetings, sitting the back...passing if they ask you to speak, if you don't want to talk.

Couldn't hurt, maybe.

Samf

[WolfM]

I was a high bottom drunk. And although I knew I was an alcoholic, it was never a problem. I admitted I was an alcoholic. But I never admitted the unmanageability of my life until my last black out when I became phyically abusive to my wife. The first and last time. I sought help the very next day and AA was there. I have been here ever since.
Still had a job, a car, A family, etc. Welcome. If YOU think you have a problem, you probably do. Look in the phone book for AA and get to a meeting. Listen for the similarities, not the differences.
Wolf M

[tracyoh]

:)

Hi, I am 6 months clean, and have finally found innerpeace. It was the hardest thing for me to addmit that I am powerless, over many things in my life. Innerpeace is something that I would not give up for the world, I would not have not gone this far if i werent for God and your fellowship

tracy

[adailyreprieve]

Congratulations.

By the way, this is your fellowship, too, if you want it to be.

[artistgirl]

i cannot say how many times i have started in the past couple of years..my intentions are always very good, but i just keep thinking somewhere in the back of my brain that i can do this without any help..what a dummy!! you'd think having been? in one rehab or another at least 5 times or so, that i would get the message,yes?? finding this website is a godsend to me. i never knew there was such a place as this.? i am attending meetings again, and looking for a temporary sponsor.. this place to come to on the computer will help greatly.? i am new here, so forgive me for not knowing how it all works yet.. just thank you all so much. it is time for me to start for real, no excuses. :)

[vegyman]

Been to a few recovery houses myself, What I have found out is that AA is Not a self help program. It's quite the oppisite and all has to do with a belief in a higher power that can do for us, what we can't do for ourselves.

Paul

[artistgirl]

i know that you are right about letting go, and trusting in a higher power. it's just so hard to let go of your damned self will that keeps telling you that you know better what is good for you, instead of just giving it away and following the signs. i know i am on the right track. being here is helping a lot.i figure the more i hold myself accountable to more people,meetings reading, whatever it takes to keep myself busy and moving in the right direction it will all start to fall into place. right now i just don't feel very comfortable with myself.

[adailyreprieve]

artistgirl,

You are doing very well. I, too, am new to this site and I'm struggling along with you.

[tsulli]

Hi Artistgirl

Thank you so much for being on here. I only have one day and I've tried doing this before. I really have to get serious too. It's so scary wondering if I'll ever take another drink, I really don't want to. Please stay on here! I like reading your messages.

Tami

[adailyreprieve]

One day. That's how we do it. One day at a time. After a few they start to pile up and that motivated me to keep going. I hope and pray it will you, too, Tami.

[MIKEYBEEF]

3 simple words. JUST DO IT. You know you need to quit,but you dont have the desire. That will come in time,when you realise how fantastic your life is starting to become. Most people never really get the desire till they hit rock bottem or close to it. Dont you get tired of your days just flying by in a forgetful fog. The power of focus is a wonderful thing. JUST DO IT and the rest of your life will fall into place.

[brad]

theres an old saying "fake it till you make it." Just do the footwork and perhaps you will find it in your heart to change.

[moon]

Brad It took me a while to get that "fake it til you make it"but I often suggestthat to a lot of the people who can not get the "God thing"I have found in my own experience that it does work! I thought it was crazy to be praying and into action when I did not believe,but it really works!I truely have a God of My unerstanding in my life today and am extremely grateful to be alive and sober one day at a time