Getting Over That Mid-Day Feeling...

[brian75]

Hi everyone,

I'm new to this site and simply have to post a question that I've been struggling with. How does one get over that mid-day "I can't wait to get home and award myself with a drink" feeling? Is it normal? When will it fade? I feel entitled after a hard day's work...

I'm an alcoholic and drug addict. I hold down a job and am married. Life's not bad, but spiritually I'm corrupt. Relaxation seems rather difficult, and I'm constantly looking forward to what's going to happen "next". Why can't I simply appreciate everything I have and calm down a bit?

Brian

[David Loughran]

Brian play for time this is the only illness that tells you that you havent got an illness try and read chapter 3 in the big book it just might save your life God bless and guide you

[alfee]

you have everything a person would need to stay sober for it sounds like...the only problem is, if you're an alcoholic none of that good stuff will keep you straight...you have to get to a point in your life where you want to stay sober more than you want to drink...if you haven't gotten there, attend enough meetings to the point where maybe you can work the 12 steps of AA and avoid some yets that are bound to sneak up on you...this is the sentence that jumped out at me when i read your post.

Relaxation seems rather difficult, and I'm constantly looking forward to what's going to happen "next".

i was the same way...and i couldn't stay still...and was for sure that if i wasn't somewhere else, all the people that were at that other place where i wasn't, would be bored as hell unless i showed up...i stayed that way so long and drank enough, to cost me 3 wives and a trip to prison...you can get off at any floor you choose...you're bottom doesn't have to be at the very bottom.

[Laurenrich777]

Hi Brian~ For me, the witching hour is 5:00 PM. And I soooo understand how you feel. I stopped January 1 of this year. Every single day I find myself thinking about a glass of wine at 5:00. I think when we started using everyday, we changed our brain chemistry and actually caused our brain to expect the drink or drugs or whatever.
It is funny because after 1 month, I find myself laughing at the stupid ways my addiction makes me try to rationalize having a drink.
I have thought things like: "It's been a month, that is enough to prove I am not addicted," or "I can have 1 and then I can go another month." Stuff like that.

And like you, I am married, I happen to have three children, two of them are toddlers. I have some amazing support from my husband who has flat out refused to talk about going to the store for wine when I try to convince him that I was joking when I said I wanted to stop (God bless his heart for knowing I mean business.)

So I don't think it goes away. I think we have to learn to deal with that anxiety that sneaks up. I think we have to transfer that energy that causes the anxiety to something healthier.