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dove
11-11-2008, 11:44 AM
:)Hi well its been an interesting few weeks, mainly as ihave been unable to get out due to having surgery on both feet, not even to take my dog out, but thankfully have just started driving and am back to people people meetings!
After all the work, and training i was an addiction councellor my head really went into total obsession mode, txting someone 20times and more, belitaling my own existance worthlessness, awful thoughts, agraphobia setting it, really really scary, all the old addiction , and obsessive behavior, i did eventually see someone who hepled me define my thoughts, so now i feel better and calmer, it was like the split syndrome, i knew the good stuff but chose the bad stuff!!!

PEW,It just remindes me one has to continually work at this programme, perhaps i had become complacant and needed a shake!!! Dove

samf
11-16-2008, 12:47 AM
Hey, Dove! I love how HP does things that end up helping me, sometimes. It's neat to see it work for someone else, too.

Sending a hug.

Samf

alfee
11-17-2008, 10:50 PM
thank you for the honesty...that was always one of my biggest stumbling blocks, being honest...
i believe today that i have to build insurance against the future times that you just described...i need to pray and establish a relationship with God, and when the day comes when i have a so-called bad day...i will be ready and willing to pray...it took a hell of a lot to get me to the point where i want to stay sober more than i want to drink...the consequences outweigh the obsession today...i pray it always will.