samf
05-15-2008, 10:23 PM
I have to say that some of the posts on this site have really made a tremendous positive impact on me and my spiritual growth.
Still,I am still struggling very hard here, and at meetings, with who is a "mentor" and who is "doing research" for me (as my sponsor likes to put it). I know that it is supposed to be about "principles (and) not personalities" but sometimes people claiming to have years of "sobriety" scare the hell out of me and it is confusing to think they are "sober" and working the same steps. I feel like my sponsor, who seems so strong in his program and infinitely wise, and my higher power ( who I have actually just recently come to start to understand and am praying to and meditating with in just 73 days after a life of "atheism"!) have helped me to see the light in these matters, but I am still weary that this is "judging" people, and I feel that judgement should be left to those more capable to handle it as it says in the 10th step. Still, I want to get the right message. I just came from a "10 Step Meeting" where many shared about "justifiable anger" and being "assertive". Did I misunderstand them, or am I not reading the black letters of the 12 & 12 right? I AM NOT TRYING TO BE A SMART ASS. I am probably just over intellectualizing again (my great nemesis) but anyone please let me know what you think about the concept of "justified anger". My spoonsor has said not to worry about other people and this was helpful advice, but he also told me to be weary of another meeting b/c he said there was " no sobriety in that room". Let me know what you all think about this. Thanks!
PS: ALSO: I just went to 5 meetings in the last 26 hours and I feel awesome. Is there such a thing as too many meetings?
---73 days and Loving AA (but definitely in the mix!)
Still,I am still struggling very hard here, and at meetings, with who is a "mentor" and who is "doing research" for me (as my sponsor likes to put it). I know that it is supposed to be about "principles (and) not personalities" but sometimes people claiming to have years of "sobriety" scare the hell out of me and it is confusing to think they are "sober" and working the same steps. I feel like my sponsor, who seems so strong in his program and infinitely wise, and my higher power ( who I have actually just recently come to start to understand and am praying to and meditating with in just 73 days after a life of "atheism"!) have helped me to see the light in these matters, but I am still weary that this is "judging" people, and I feel that judgement should be left to those more capable to handle it as it says in the 10th step. Still, I want to get the right message. I just came from a "10 Step Meeting" where many shared about "justifiable anger" and being "assertive". Did I misunderstand them, or am I not reading the black letters of the 12 & 12 right? I AM NOT TRYING TO BE A SMART ASS. I am probably just over intellectualizing again (my great nemesis) but anyone please let me know what you think about the concept of "justified anger". My spoonsor has said not to worry about other people and this was helpful advice, but he also told me to be weary of another meeting b/c he said there was " no sobriety in that room". Let me know what you all think about this. Thanks!
PS: ALSO: I just went to 5 meetings in the last 26 hours and I feel awesome. Is there such a thing as too many meetings?
---73 days and Loving AA (but definitely in the mix!)