is it possible to get bore with it all .help me please

[tlrgs]

yes i have a question is it possible to bore with hearing the same story diffrent day.
i have read alot of the big book . all of the 12&12 and so many stories.and i am falling a sleep at meeting.
i have been now 5 months sober and i dont really want any al . and some times when i do go to meeting it feels like when the speaker speaks he's looking at me for some reason . yes i dont follow all the ideals of aa. but when i started this missioni had no one they left me there . to either kill myself and i try that it didnt work so i woke up .
and what i chose was to help myself and when i first read the 12 steps and 12 tr it was everything i was already thinking and doing in my life . so where do i go from here.dont get me wrong iam doing great my life is good i have food a girlfriend that love me and i love her.
so what should i look for now.

[KsAlki]

I have been in recovery for 16+ years and I attend way more than others but nothing ever surprises me about recoverying, just keep going until you like going to meetings.

[samf]

It helped me, once, to get more involved. To volunteer to help. To go for coffee afterward, etc.

Hope you keep going...like KsAlki said, too...made sense to me.

Sam

[angussdundee]

You could try other meetings in another part of town or even another county tlrgs.
But I speak from my own experience when I say 'it has probably got more to do with your attitude than with the speakers'.
You can't change the speakers you may find boring but you can change the way in which you listen to them.
Try identifying with the little parts you may hear instead of comparing the parts that you don't.
And when was the last time that you actually shared 'honestly' from the heart yourself?
By speaking up at meetings we often encourage the newcomers who are 'bored with the speakers' - You know the ones I mean - the ones that get up and walk out - never to be seen again.
Just like me, it may be YOU that needs to change. When AA is coming out of your ears its not really getting into your brain, now is it.
Have a word with your sponsor - you have got one haven't you ??? Sponsors may not be as much fun as a new girlfriend but they can help us to get honest!
Perhaps he can help you to identify whats going on behind that negative thinking before the stinking thinking leads to ..........yes you got it... ;)

Keep coming back, we're your friends.

Anguss.

[Thevelv.rabbit]

I would have left the program if I had gone to open mtgs all the time. I rarely go to opens...unless it's someone I know. I attend closed mtgs. In the beginning I went to a different closed mtg everyday. I've recently heard that I'm lucky to be in Northwest Indiana...we have TONS of mtgs here.

There was a point where I started feeling "sluggish"...so I went to a beginner's mtg. 1st Step mtgs always inspire/encourage me. Then I contacted my sponsor and made an effort to "work" the steps. Instead of my usual complaining, we actually got out the BB/12/12 and studied. Not just read words...but get out the dictionary/thesarus...

Today I make 2-3 mtgs/wk.

Everyone has given good food for thought. Angus mentioned speaking up at mtgs...something inside happens when u share. That's part of the magic...the glue. Holds u accountable too.

[WolfM]

Dear Tirgs,
You have read the big book and the 12X12. Have you worked the steps with a sponsor. I have been going to meetings (and staying sober) for more than 20 years and I have been to meetings all over the Pacific in Japan, Guam, Saipan, Australia, Hawaii, California and the format is the same. We read the preamble, the steps, the traditions, and then share our experience, strength, and hope with each other, regardless of the meeting format (Grapevine, Big Book, Living Sober). And I come from a small island where I already know all the old timer's stories and they know mine. But that does not prevent me from hearing something that I need to hear form their stories when I need to hear it.
Boring is what my life was when I was in that rut of work, happy hour, serious drinking, sleep. Every day, 5 days a week. (Weekends there was no happy hour, I just drank all day). My life today is a journey of self knowledge which I get by working with my sponsor and other alcoholics, studying the Big Book, going to meetings, and working the steps. My life today is full of positive things and positive people. And if there is someone rambling on at a meeting and I find myself looking at my watch, it reminds me of how intolerant I can sometimes be, even in sobriety. And looking at my watch when someone is sharing says more about my character defects that it does about the person sharing. Like all things in AA, it comes back to me and my responsibility to stay sober, and to help others stay sober.
Thanks for letting me share. ( I hope you were not looking at your watch ;D.

[tlrgs]

no iam not looking at my watch .but the thing is that i felt uncomfortble there at that meet.
not all of them. and yes i have read the 12 and 12.and living sober and most of the big book.
and i dont feel i need a spo.and i have started doing this before i even read the 12 and 12 when i open the book it was everything i was already doing and apling in my life .and i am now almost 5 months and going strong. and with everything i have read. i am learning the best way for me .
and its working. so really thanks and i am going to keep coming back. there is one meeting i try to go to every sunday .and its a small one but a good one..thanks again

[angussdundee]

When I got my first car I didn't think I needed to pass a driving test. Well hell! the car drove just as good with out one - for a while. Then I ended up in court on DD charges and for not having a license or insurance.
My 'short cut to the top' ended up costing me dear and I very nearly killed myself in the process.
Remember the little slogans? Think - First things first - Keep it simple.
The Frank Sinatra 'I did it my way' doesn't work with us alkies.... :D

Anguss.

[tlrgs]

what the hell is this. when they wrote the big book and 12and 12 . who wrote it" people "and they had a good plan of attact to go af .but when someone has a ideal to change himself .he doesnt know what he is doing . so my hats off too all of you . i guess with all the stuff that you read doesnt make a **** and i guess you cant look out side the box wow. life is too short to just rely.on one or two book for life .when god made man and women . what he said is here's life work it .and heres a book can someone write everything i say down so that people can learn from me .no i dont think so someone wrote that book call the bible. because someone felt we needed to have some insight.just like all the other books on the shelf collecting dust.please dont get me wrong but i guess this is why i am who i am.and see i stop doing drugs about 9 years ago on myown and havent want to go back there ever again. but when i quit the drugs . i was drinking at that time but not as much so i guess you can say the al took the place.and now am going on my mission to be af for the rest of my life . and one thing i know there is no quik fixs to life .if there was everyone would be not drinking or doing anything like that.so for me life is getting better why . because . i am reading and alpying the thing i read to my life .and i havent need to drink now . i am now almost 5 months af and going strong and why .because who i am and the ways i do thing and because i dont want to live in the past anymore ,i want to look farward to the future.ami an ass hole for that . i think not . and this is the way i work thing out for myself .thank you for all of your replys

[angussdundee]

No offense meant tlrgs - my hand is out to you in fellowship... :)
You sound like a very determined kind of fellow, congratulations on being 9 years off the gear.
I found determination was good as far as it went, but it only got me so far, then I ran out of power, then I picked up again. It was only when I took the massive step of actually asking another person to sponsor me into the AA 12 step program that the power started to flow right in. It was then that I started to get honest with another human being, with God and eventually with myself.
It is also my mission (my primary purpose) to stay of drink for the rest of my life, but I do it one day at a time.

Wishing you all the very best on your journey.

Anguss.

[tlrgs]

i think what i wil do next is post my story "the awaking and the pepper plant"
and i am glad to see there is alot of people heer at this site .
i have just been coming on ever ones in a while.
thanks for your replys