Good/Bad Old Days

[angussdundee]

I, like a lot of alcoholic/addicts, seem to have a great ability to recall the 'Good old days'.

That was when I seemed to have a huge consumption for booze and drugs without too much ill effect....
That was when I seemed to be the heart and sole of the party....
That was when I seemed to be in control....

That type of thinking can easily blot out the memory of 'the bad old days'.

That was when I started to look like a back street wino or junkie....
That was when my family finally had the sense to leave me for their own safety and sanity....
That was when I had degenerated into a miserable shadow of my former self....

If ever you feel like you miss the 'Good old days' it might be a good idea to cast your mind back in an honest way to how it really was.
Have a 'nostalgic look' at those old photos of yourself that you've hidden away in the back of a drawer.
Or ask your friends or family to remind you of what it was really like back then.

Remember, If you ever forget your last drunk, you probably haven't had it....

Anguss.

[samf]

Wow, thanks, Anguss!!

Reminded me of them telling me to look at the unglamorous side...I can't remember the exact words, rioght now...but, yes...to remember, for me, the hurt of the next morning...how I lost my kids, my home, my car...how I slept in the park, and so on...some of those coming to experiences...coming out of some of those blackouts.

It definitely got to where it was NOT fun, and I wasn't able to recapture the times that might have been kind of fun, early on.

I know they used to say to play the drink all the way through, too.

My first sponsor had me write out a first step, where I listed what happened when I took a drink, as many times as I could remember.

It was the first time I saw in black and white just exactly what happened, and it sure wasn't pretty.

Love,

Sam