Hi, sorta new here

[ChicknLittle]

Hi, I joined on here earlier this year sometime with another name, but don't think I posted much of anything... but thought I'd check out this forum again...

I'm Lisa, alkie in North Mississippi... started my journey in AA last year in Memphis, TN... moved to Nebraska at the beginning of this year, relapsed in April... and thankfully went right back to meetings the next day... came back down south in August, and am nearing 8 months of sobriety now... have found a great homegroup up in Selmer, TN, a wonderful sponsor up there, and am finding a new family around here.

Life is so up in the air right now, am hoping to move to Iowa for school before too long, but for now just trying to take things as they come... been struggling a lot lately and have been told I'm not allowed to make any decisions for the time being lol I obviously haven't listened much to all those "1st year suggestions" but it hasn't turned out all bad, if nothing else this has all been a learning experience... but am listening for the time being about "no decisions"... have felt like I'm almost at a breaking point lately and trying hard to just hang on. Trying to get more involved, and trying to reach out more and tryin to not be so afraid of asking for help when I need it... am a bit isolated with where I am living, so I try to use internet groups to sorta supplement when I can't get to meetings and around people, and though it isn't a replacement for f2f, it really is a lifesaver at times...

Looking forward to getting to know y'all...

Lisa

[angussdundee]

Great to see you back Lisa, Just hang on girl, it'll all shake out just as it's meant to and all in God's time.

Happy Christmas when it comes.

Anguss.

[ChicknLittle]

Thanks Anguss, nice to meet you, and merry christmas to you too :)

Holidays I think have just added to the stress and struggles I've been dealing with lately.... but at least have something to look forward to, my bf should be here this weekend, and spending all next week here... I'd been facing my first Christmas alone which was I think bothering me some... but hoping that will make this Christmas a really good one, that maybe at least for that week I can try to set aside some of the struggles I've been dealing with...

Also told my sponsor I'd fill in for her chairing a meeting the Thursday after Christmas, that will be my first time chairing a meeting and I'm actually really excited about it! Yes, just a bit nervous too, but mostly excited :) All this time I've been around these rooms I've refused to chair a meeting, and have not even been asked to when I was in Nebraska, or down here yet, but surprised myself in actually *wanting* to lol So it's a kinda cool thing for me, maybe just a small step in the right direction I hope? with trying to get more involved...

[samf]

Hi Lisa! Welcome! I'm so glad you're here! ;D

Samf

[sobertoday]

Lisa, thanks for your honesty...........you ain't the only one stuggl'n hang in there.

Your not perfect...............but continue working on your maturity.....thats my focus. To be mature in all aspects of my life ie..fatherhood, work, husbandhood, friendship, being a son, a worker, a strong union man....ect....

nice to meet you all.

I'm sober today. ;D