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MajestyJo
05-01-2011, 12:34 AM
Not sure that my thoughts follow under this category or not.

When I was in treatment, the woman who was the director of the program and my counsellor, said that her father never drank or drugged but had been in the Military.

There were a lot of control issues and she saw a lot of the symptoms of the alcoholic thinking. I did not know then, but was later to find out that it isn't the substance we use, the problem originates within ourselves.

She was a wonderful woman and I loved her dearly. She passed away as a result of cancer a couple of months after we graduated from the program. She was only 36 years old. I am glad that she found the peace of the program before she passed away.

The excessive organizing and regimental control of the military could be a different program. I did a search and they only listed 12.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Workaholics_Anonymous

I qualify for this group too. When I get involved in things what I call busy, it often leads to obsessive compulive behavior until such a time as I turn it over to my Higher Power. On saw symptoms on my job and through my career. I saw it when I started my sites. One became many and it was life or death to me to post and maintain them.

I beleive I was addicted to service too when I was doing 7 meetings in 6 days, plus meeting with sponsees and going to 'me' meetings to get filled up. When i am so busy looking at you, I don't have to look at me. It doesn't matter what type of work I do. It is how much I do and my purpose and intent behind it.

I know a friend who has been involved in service since I have known her, not only with 12 Step Programs but with Community service as well. Volunteering is the same as regular work and it all leads to the same soul sickness.

Workaholism is magnetically attractive because it prevents the experience of any emotions.

~ Gary Zukav ~

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My "thinker" was broke. I knew it wasn't working and was malfunctioning. I had a real thirst to learn and listen to message that others were sharing, soaking it up like a sponge. Then I had to evaluate and see what was good for me.

It was like I had a hole in my soul. Slowly but surely we sealed the leak. Sure didn't retain much in the early months, all I was capable of doing was putting one foot in front of the other and go to meetings.

I put all the energy that I put into using and finding more into my recovery.