samf
08-05-2007, 12:59 PM
I copied the following from another message board site:
"There is a music group called Jars of Clay. In one of their songs the words go as follows, "Got to admit I love these chains; crawling around this cage sometimes has it's advantages. Perhaps one day this could get old..." While these words probably were not written about addiction, I believe they do describe what addiction was like for me.
I really loved the chains of addiction for a while. Then I began to feel like all I did was live in and crawl around in a cage with the delusion that somehow it had its advantages. Then one day it just got old. Day after day I was stuck in a frenzied darkness. Day after day I found myself empty, alone and crazy. I wanted to stop the insanity but didn't know how. Do I want the insanity to stop?
Meditations for the Heart:
Step Two tells us that the insanity of addiction can stop. We have already admitted that we cannot make it stop; but there is One, who has all power that can relieve us of the insanity. Not only can we be relieved of the insanity, but we can also have the chains of bondage broken. We find that we no longer have to wander around in a cage. We begin to understand that there is no advantage to living in this manner. Yes, it is possible; and all we have to do is believe that a Power outside of us can and will show us the way out. Am I willing to give up my old beliefs and trust in a Higher Power?
Petitions to my Higher Power:
God,
In this new day let me come to believe that You can and will show me a way out of the insanity of my disease. Help me to see the chains of addiction for what they were. Let me begin to enjoy a new life outside of the cage I had grown so accustomed to. Help me to see that true recovery never gets old."
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I remember thinking that booze or drugs was the only way I knew how to cope with life. It was my best way of coping.
I wandered around inside that cage for a long time.
This really affected me, this morning: "Then one day it just got old. Day after day I was stuck in a frenzied darkness. Day after day I found myself empty, alone and crazy. I wanted to stop the insanity but didn't know how."
I remember that feeling so much!
One day, my Higher Power opened the door to the cage. For me, a Power outside of me could and would and did show me the way out. I'm so grateful for that.
I am still always in the process of learning to let go of a particular old belief, today. I still have to learn to trust that Higher Power of mine, rather than what my own sick brain will tell me, sometimes.
If a Higher Power rescued me, I have absolute comfidence that can happen for ANYone.
I have met too many walking, talking miracles in AA to not believe it's possible.
How about you?
Thank you guys for being here.
Sam
"There is a music group called Jars of Clay. In one of their songs the words go as follows, "Got to admit I love these chains; crawling around this cage sometimes has it's advantages. Perhaps one day this could get old..." While these words probably were not written about addiction, I believe they do describe what addiction was like for me.
I really loved the chains of addiction for a while. Then I began to feel like all I did was live in and crawl around in a cage with the delusion that somehow it had its advantages. Then one day it just got old. Day after day I was stuck in a frenzied darkness. Day after day I found myself empty, alone and crazy. I wanted to stop the insanity but didn't know how. Do I want the insanity to stop?
Meditations for the Heart:
Step Two tells us that the insanity of addiction can stop. We have already admitted that we cannot make it stop; but there is One, who has all power that can relieve us of the insanity. Not only can we be relieved of the insanity, but we can also have the chains of bondage broken. We find that we no longer have to wander around in a cage. We begin to understand that there is no advantage to living in this manner. Yes, it is possible; and all we have to do is believe that a Power outside of us can and will show us the way out. Am I willing to give up my old beliefs and trust in a Higher Power?
Petitions to my Higher Power:
God,
In this new day let me come to believe that You can and will show me a way out of the insanity of my disease. Help me to see the chains of addiction for what they were. Let me begin to enjoy a new life outside of the cage I had grown so accustomed to. Help me to see that true recovery never gets old."
-----
I remember thinking that booze or drugs was the only way I knew how to cope with life. It was my best way of coping.
I wandered around inside that cage for a long time.
This really affected me, this morning: "Then one day it just got old. Day after day I was stuck in a frenzied darkness. Day after day I found myself empty, alone and crazy. I wanted to stop the insanity but didn't know how."
I remember that feeling so much!
One day, my Higher Power opened the door to the cage. For me, a Power outside of me could and would and did show me the way out. I'm so grateful for that.
I am still always in the process of learning to let go of a particular old belief, today. I still have to learn to trust that Higher Power of mine, rather than what my own sick brain will tell me, sometimes.
If a Higher Power rescued me, I have absolute comfidence that can happen for ANYone.
I have met too many walking, talking miracles in AA to not believe it's possible.
How about you?
Thank you guys for being here.
Sam