MajestyJo
04-26-2011, 12:18 AM
When I shared my story tonight, I mentioned that my drug of choice was more. I never had the concept of one of anything.
I shared that I was addicted to alcohol, men, pills, men, food, men....
Something that I had a big problem with was being addicted to 'busy' always having to be doing something, not being able to spend time with myself without noise and just shutting off and being alone with my HP. No TV, no computer, no music, no books, just me, myself and I.
Not picking up food, cigarettes, and 'busy' to stuff feelings and to avoid looking at me. Busy can be something good like service work and yet, why did I suffer burn out at least once a year? There is something wrong with that picture. I was using people and service, to not look at me and not spend time alone with myself and my God.
I need to remember that I need food for my body, mind and spirit.
I shared that I was addicted to alcohol, men, pills, men, food, men....
Something that I had a big problem with was being addicted to 'busy' always having to be doing something, not being able to spend time with myself without noise and just shutting off and being alone with my HP. No TV, no computer, no music, no books, just me, myself and I.
Not picking up food, cigarettes, and 'busy' to stuff feelings and to avoid looking at me. Busy can be something good like service work and yet, why did I suffer burn out at least once a year? There is something wrong with that picture. I was using people and service, to not look at me and not spend time alone with myself and my God.
I need to remember that I need food for my body, mind and spirit.