any other SA in the group?

[BigFriday]

Hey all

Grateful member of AA and SA here....just wondering if there are any other SA members out here

Cheers

David

[MajestyJo]

Went to a meeting once. Already had 3 programs (AA, NA, and Al-Anon). that I was participating in. I had to go for sexual assault counselling though at 15 years sober.

[BigFriday]

I'm starting to feel a little outcast at the SA meetings....I have a ton of resentments I was holding to the fellowship as I was not accepted as willingly as I have in AA, and NA...

just struggling to get through the steps...but I have made it to step 4...now come the hard part :16::16::16:

[MajestyJo]

It helped me to remember that in order to clean house, I need to know what is there. It wasn't a tool to beat myself up over, but a tool to allow me to heal.

I was also reminded that it was a one day at a time program. It is about today. What about my past affects my life in today. What am I bringing with me from my past that I need to let go of and what is there that I need to hang onto and nurture. It isn't all negative although I had problems recognizing the postive.

The best way for me, was to pray for the person(s) that I resented. They didn't always get better but I did. It says in the Big Book to do it for 3 weeks if my memory serves me correctly. I use to pray that they got ALL that they deserved. My sponsor told me that I need to change my attitude. She said, "Pray for them what you would like for yourself. Wish them health, happiness, prosperity, and pray that they have a spiritual awakening. If they have a spiritual awakening, then they can't continue to act out in their disease. I had to realize that they were sick too. Especially family, as they had been around me. It is a family disease. If you look at how many people we hurt on our journey to get here, you would think that Al-Anon and Nar-Anon and all the other Anons, would be 3 times the size of SA, MA, GA, AA, NA etc. I was angry and resented myself and God as well as all the real and imagined hurts along the way.

Recovery is a process. We can only heal, one day at a time.

[smac]

i go to sa meetings

[MajestyJo]

Welcome. Thank you for sharing.

[smac]

just to share today, spring time is often a very difficult time for me with my eyes, lusting after every attractive woman and wanting to use them in fantasy or to go further and actually act out. I have made multiple phone calls to people in program, trying to surrender this lust / compulsion to my HP.

[smac]

I am thankful for my HP, good music to connect me with my hp, my wife and beautiful children and people in the 12 steps and the steps and traditions themselves. Surrendering it helped, thanks for allowing me to do so on this board.:1::195:

[MajestyJo]

It has been my experience, that no matter what my substance I was addicted to, I had to turn my thoughts over to my Higher Power. I can't, We can. I had to turn my computer over to Him, the same as I had to turn over my alcoholic and addiction to pills. I was very codependent and always felt I needed to have someone else in my life. I felt like I needed them to validate me as I couldn't find it within myself. When I get needy, I get greedy, no matter what the substance is. I always need to remember the problem isn't the drug, it is me. My sponsor says, "Call them challenges. Challenges you can overcome, problems you can stay stuck in."

[smac]

I can't, We can

Reminds me of the example I was shown about the differece between Illness and WEellness. Thanks for your response, it certainly is me and not other people that create struggles. One day at a time I will face these challanges / temptations. Temptations are part of life, what I do with them is on me.

[MajestyJo]

It is my belief that when we turn our day and our addiction, no matter what the substance is, over to our Higher Power and remember to give thanks at night, that we will receive what we need, be it strength, courage, good orderly direction, awareness, willingness, surrender, acceptance, etc. It just doesn't have to be at the beginning of the day, prayer is good any time. I think of my mother when I think of prayer. She use to say, "Is your prayer so weak it hits the ceiling and bounces back?"