angussdundee
03-04-2007, 06:40 AM
Wowwww. It's early March already. The days are getting longer and although it's still a bit wintery here in the UK I can feel my mood lifting, as it always does with the approach of spring. I'm not sure if I suffer from 'Seasonal affective dissorder' or not but I definately do feel lifted up when I feel the warmth of the early spring sunshine that always make the bulbs, especialy the blue bells start to spread in my garden. The little blue birds are busy sticking their heads into the nesting boxes for a look round and nature just seems to have perfect control over the scheme of things, (without my interference) :D
Last year was one of the busiest and most stressfull periods of my recovery so far as I spent most of the year rebuilding and converting an old cottage into a holiday home in Scotland, (it sounded like a fun idea at the time) :-\ My meetings routine went west and so did my serenity at times. When things got really heavy I walked along the shore or climbed up amongst the rocks to find a good spot to pray for my Gods guidance and protection. I use simple language - God help me to recognise your will for me - God grace me with cheerfulness - God grant me strenght to do your will and so on. Pretty soon my system would start to stabelize again and I would go back into the flurry of activity of machinery and noise and dust.
Was this god's will for me or was it self will run roit? I think the jury is still out, but I do know that at times I was filled with the strenght of two men. I had courage and convition that I never seemed to possess before. I just seemed to be doing the right thing. And one day while I was looking round the small churchyard that overlooks the harbour a powerful thought came into my head, that the little sailor's isle that projects from the side of the church towards the sea would be the perfect place to start a little AA meeting.
So, this year I have decided to 'try' to take it a little easier, get my meetings routine back on track and when I visit the cottage perhaps I'll introduce myself to the minister of that little church with the view to finding out if he is aware of the felowship of Alcoholics Anonymous and if so is he interested in sharing that little sailor's isle with us? God's will or my will? Again, the jury is still out.
Have a great spring everyone and God help us all.
Anguss.
Last year was one of the busiest and most stressfull periods of my recovery so far as I spent most of the year rebuilding and converting an old cottage into a holiday home in Scotland, (it sounded like a fun idea at the time) :-\ My meetings routine went west and so did my serenity at times. When things got really heavy I walked along the shore or climbed up amongst the rocks to find a good spot to pray for my Gods guidance and protection. I use simple language - God help me to recognise your will for me - God grace me with cheerfulness - God grant me strenght to do your will and so on. Pretty soon my system would start to stabelize again and I would go back into the flurry of activity of machinery and noise and dust.
Was this god's will for me or was it self will run roit? I think the jury is still out, but I do know that at times I was filled with the strenght of two men. I had courage and convition that I never seemed to possess before. I just seemed to be doing the right thing. And one day while I was looking round the small churchyard that overlooks the harbour a powerful thought came into my head, that the little sailor's isle that projects from the side of the church towards the sea would be the perfect place to start a little AA meeting.
So, this year I have decided to 'try' to take it a little easier, get my meetings routine back on track and when I visit the cottage perhaps I'll introduce myself to the minister of that little church with the view to finding out if he is aware of the felowship of Alcoholics Anonymous and if so is he interested in sharing that little sailor's isle with us? God's will or my will? Again, the jury is still out.
Have a great spring everyone and God help us all.
Anguss.