scared to say i dont feel good

[chazneyboy]

hi everyone,

Hows everyone doing sorry ive not been writing for a while but still been reading the posts. I am now nearly 12 weeks sober and have bben attending meetings and have a sponsor and am studying the big book, last week i had a great week and everything was great, this week however i dont feel so good i forgot to say i went back to work last week after a year and a half, i feel really tired and low i dont have any craving for drink but feel very sad and am scred to tell anyone caues everyone thinks im doing really good and everyone saying how proud they are of me but i dont feel it this week as i say i feel really sad is this a normal thing to happen? im so scared of letting everone down and also am fed up moaning about me wanna talk about everyone else instead of thinking of me. Also since i stopped drinking i thought i was able to deal with problems i hadf when i started drinking and now i dont think i can i dont want to think about them but without drink i can remeber it all clearly at least when i drank i could forget .

okay sorry i just went on and on there

as i say hope you are all well

thanks for any advice you can give me
x

[WolfM]

Dear Chazneyboy,
Carol87 has a good point. Don't think of it in terms of weeks. Just do it one day at a time. And a problem shared is a problem cut in half. What you are feeling has been felt by someone else, somewhere else, and they have gotten through it without picking up. So just pray, talk to your sponsor, continue to go to meetings, and continue to study the Big Book. All the answers are in there.
WolfM

[Terri]

Carrie Underwood :Some Hearts :'Jesus, Take the Wheel'

Jill,
When I decided to surrender completely was the day my life began. I was on my way to work and heard this song.
When I heard it my eyes filled with tears and my heart and head filled with thoughts of hope.
I knew for me these were the words & action needed to help me through those really tough days.

Today I am 114 days sober and so grateful......Like the others say , speaking with your sponsor.....going to meetings and sharing will help immensely!!! And remember your higher power is ALWAYS there

Terri

[samf]

Jill, hi.

I wanted to encourage you to share.

When I DO share how I am feeling, and thinking, I am amazed at the help and hope I get from other AA's.

If I leave it bottled up in me, it gets worse, most times.

When I first started working again, it wore me out for a while...then I seemed to have gotten used to it a little more.

I was also scared about whether I could even hang on to a job.

Today, if I am really tired and worn out, it affects me, and everthing seems so overwhelming.

I try to just do this one day only, and trust that when the next one comes, I'll be given what I need for that day, too.

Sending big hugs your way!

Hope you let us know how you are.

Sam

[joyroadman]

your post reminds me of how it was for me.
They used to tell me
"you`re right where you are supossed to be"

[sioux]

Those first months are tough. THat whole entire first year and a half for me were very touch. Do not be discouraged!

I kept putting one foot in front of the other, doing it moment by moment at times. I got a home group and let people get to know me. The real me.

You know the other day I heard a new comer mention something I hadn't experienced, but maybe you can get something out of this. He said that he was greiving...his old life, his old ways. Of course the fear we can all relate to is that we want this to work, but are fearfl it won't, or we are having a hard time trusting ourselves, others, our Creator...

Please keep coming back!

[chazneyboy]

Hi everyone,

thanks for your advice, I,ve been feeling better again and being able to share a lot more now, I have chaired my first meeting and really enjoyed doing that and am really looking forward to shairing at a table, joined another group so now in 2 groups and really enjoying it just now, i take your advice on living life for today and that does help a lot, also someone said about greiving for my old life i think your right i think thats what i happening, but the new life im having without drink is so much better i would reccomend it to everyone. Nothing is better than waking up sober

thanks again for your help

love jill x

[samf]

Jill, am happy to hear thta it is better!

Just wanted to tell you so!

Sam