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jeffg
12-23-2006, 11:53 AM
I'd really just like to find a few people to give me encouragement and support while
I realize that I'm an alcoholic and try to do something real about it.

I've gone to meetings before years ago, but only because I was being pushed to do
it by another person. Now, 5 years later after taking two days to get over a three day bender and once again
disappointing myself and people who depend on me I have to find a way to stop this dance.

While my previous tenure with AA was imposed upon me , I really did feel a sense of
camaraderie with those people whose stories were very much akin to my own. It certainly seems alot better to be in
a meeting listening to people who want to liver soberly for an hour than sitting on my ass drinking myself into oblivion.

I have no idea whether anyone will even see this post, but I guess I'm at a cross-road where I have to
decide whether to live in this insane dance with alcohol or help myself by asking others
who have been down this road to show me.

If you wish to respond, I could use a sober friend

fishdocdon
12-23-2006, 03:21 PM
Welcome Jeff. I hope you are humiliated enough to do what you know you should do. I was in the very same boat when I got to AA. Get to some face to face meetings and you WILL feel better about yourself. Wishing you a sober Christmas and many more. GBWU Don

CarolD
12-23-2006, 05:25 PM
;)? ? It's? ?great to see? a new member? seeking? answers
Welcome? Jeff!

For understanding alcoholism...I recommend...

"Under The influence"
and it's sequel
"Beyond The Influence"

they? ?are carried by Amazon

I? used? the? info? ?in? 'Under"
combined? it? with? ?my? God? and? AA?

and? finally? quit drinking!? ?

This? can be true for you? ?too
and
Sobriety? ?Rocks!? ? ;D

MIKEYBEEF
01-02-2007, 03:16 PM
Hey Jeff i can truly say that i know what your going threw.Ive been there many times.The thing is that i dont give up.There is light at the end of the tunnel we get ourselves into,we just have to notice it and look for it.Keep the big book with you threw your journey and it will help you with that war we all get in our heads to pick up that first drink. I wish you another sober day. ;D

Laurenrich777
01-07-2009, 10:15 AM
Dear Jeff,

I see that you posted here awhile ago and I hope you are doing well. Even if you have not quit yet, do come back.
I posted before I was ready and although I only have 1 week under my belt, I really feel much better and I wish that
for you.

Let us know how you are.

risbridger
08-19-2009, 05:57 AM
Dear Jeff,

It's true that we alcoholics must never give up. My 25 tear battle is testimony to this fact!
Take your Big book with you forever. Go to meetings as if your life depended on it.

Ring others frequently, find a sponsor and home group. I made the mistake of not putting my recovery first.
But I must stay positive "Yesterdays History..Tomorrow's a mistery.





Bottom line is for the rest of my life I must practice humility, learn to tolerate how I feel, and show respect to those I judge so harshly everywhere particularly in AA.
If I can't quit being so bloody grumpy at aa MEETINGS i'M SUNK.
i HAVE NO LIFE WITHOUT THE PROGRAMME. aLCOHOLISM IS DUBBED THE LONELY DISEASE.
iT'S TIME TO QUIT MY SELFISH-ISOLATION.

gODBLESS,

mIKE