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[wendyb]

:17: Hi... i am new to this site and still very much fumbling my way round it at the mo.... i have just celebrated 3 months sobriety although i have had some sobriety under my belt in the past... i could stop drinking but it was the staying stopped i struggle with.... gosh i feel i have so much to share but want to just say a lil about myself at the mo to touch base with you all... im delighted to have found this site... very cool to have another tool to add to my box of sobriety i love being a part of this fellowship... its amazing... although i have visited the rooms of AA in the past and thought id got it, ive now this time round come to realize i hadnt!!!! this i believe is because all the other times i was kind o going it alone.... white knuckkling so to speak !!!!! this time however i got myself a sponsor and embarked on the 12 steps ... i now feel i have a programme for LIFE !!! a programme that enables me to live life on lifes terms.... which is pretty amazing for me!!!!;0) i am so grateful to be a part of AA and find so much comfort in being a part of this fellowshiip... it truely fills the hole in my sole that ive always felt.... nothing not nothing ive ever tried to fix it with .... people places things has ever managed to do that, ive come to believe ive been searching in all the wrong places !!!! i feel ive come home now !!!! i still have bad day s mainly with depression but having my programme amd working it on a daily bases enables me to accept and sit with the way i feel having the faith that these times will pass... i need not, or want to drink or use to change the way i feel, and long may that continue.... i have great awarenesss that it only exacibates everything that its troubling me !!!! anyway ill leave it there as i could go on forever many thanks for being here... peace and serenity wished to all my fellows !!!!

wendy !!! x

[yukonm]

Good Morning Wendy,
Thanks for sharing. I am so glad you found us and look forward to hearing more from you.

[MajestyJo]

Thank you for sharing, like you, I had trouble staying stopped. I tried my way for 8 years, substituting one thing for another which all lead back to the alcohol. Pills were like dried up alcohol for me. When I finally found the doors of recovery, I found the solution. People doing what I had been trying to do for years. When I hit my 8th anniversary, it was a great celebration.

[wendyb]

Thanks so much guys... this is so nice to log in and touch base with my fellows!!!! i'm off to 2 meetings today Whoop Whoop i love my meeting ... chairs.... and shares .... inspirational!!! going to my meetings recharges my spiritual batteries !!! i find it difficult to share at meetings as much as i want to my anxiety levels go up and my mouth wont open... which is quite strange for me as i can chat for Briton in a one on one situation ;0)... it makes me feel bad that i dont share as often as i should epecially when there is a new comer... being a new comer myself and where i find myself in my recovery i really feel i have a message of hope to give... i could kick myself at times.... i try to make up for this by chatting to individuales on a one to one bases after the meetings... but am desperately hoping that i will find the courage eventually to share in the rooms ;0) !!!! kk well i best be off to make myself look a bit more presentable.... me thinx turning up at the meeting with the PJ's look going on wouldnt go down to well ;0) althoug i have turned up looking much worse for wear in the past !!! ;0)

love peace and serenity to all ....

Wendy !!! ;0) xxx

[captpaulge]

Keep your sobriety 1st and all else falls in place.

[Butterfly Woman]

Hi Wendy

Welcome to the journey and congradulations on your 3 months milestone

The "meetings after the meetings" are just as important as the meetings themselves