Change

[blossom]

It's funny, when iwas drinking i hated routine - i never wanted to have that commitment to anything...to say that everyday at this particular time i will be doing that. I was so much more of a free spirit than that (so i thought) and in recovery i have come to realise that that was just another one of my lies that i used to cover up the fact that i just didn't want anyone else to know where or what i was doing...and if i had routine they would always be able to find me...i was always running and trying to hide. But since sobering up, i like my routine - i like knowing what i am doing in this day and while i am not rigid and can be very spontaneous, i like the familiaririty.

I guess the reason i am sharing this is because i am moving house in two days time, and i'm feeling quite stressed, unsettled and like theres just so much to do that i can't do anything! You would think i should be an expert by now, i have moved 12 times since the age of 16 when i left home. But i do have apprehension, not fear exactly but i know for me change in what ever form takes me a while to adjust and that it can be quite turbulent emotionally for a while, but i also know it will be ok. Plus sometimes i think i should almost be ok with everything and say to myself "its just moving house", but then i read it is one of the most stressful things in life and that even so called "normal folk" get stressed about it. So perhaps i should be a little easier on myself - but i always need to be aware of whats going on inside, because while something maybe stressful for normal folk and me, the difference is if they have a drink to ease the stress thats ok.....whereas if i have a drink to ease the stress, i will trigger a mental and physical obssession that will kill me!

So with boxes coming out of my ears and cupboards to empty, i should really get packing rather than sitting here, but by sitting here i now the gumption to go and pack....funny how that works????

Love
Blossom

[albertawind]

I find that right now I need a routine and I need to keep busy. I'm cleaning and organizing everyday. Nestbuilding. I'm obsessed about it. It helps to keep my mind off drinking! It's still early in my sobriety and if I'm not doing something - anything - my mind fills with thoughts about drinking. Not long ago I would get overwhelmed and totally stressed about all the things that had to be done around the house, and I would drink instead. Nothing ever got done. More mess, more stress, more drink, and on and on it would go. Now that I'm not drinking I have more energy and more ambition to do things that need to be done. My wife sure the hell appreciates it!!!

Good luck with the move, Blossom. I'm sure it will go well.

[Carol87]

blossom ... One Biox at a Time !!!?? ;)?So with boxes coming out of my ears and cupboards to empty, i should really get packing rather than sitting here, but by sitting here i now the gumption to go and pack....funny how that works?? ?Hmmm ... maybe its the same as taking action?? ?I don't know? :P... just keep trudgin'!? ;D ?Seriously .. good luck on moving; I haven't done that for years and dread even thinking about it.? ?

As for routine!? ?Well, when I was working, I had a routine ... now that I'm retired, ain't no way that I want a routine or anything that even comes close to looking like a commitment!? ? ::)

[fishdocdon]

Hey Blossom. I hate moving also as with any big change,really. It's exciting in 1 way stressing in another. Again it's the little things that I have to get used to. The sounds of traffic, the wind, NORMAL creaks and sounds of the house etc. Neighbors. Thanks to God and AA I don't have to worry about many of those old imagined fears (boogie men in the shdows, stc.) that used to so traumatize me. I know you'll do great in your move, a lot of work. With God helping you , you'll have more than enough endurance and energy. GBWU Doc

[samf]

Hey, Blossom!

Yah...moving is NOT big on my list of fun things to do, today...although sometimes in my life, I have actually LIKED moving. (Go figure!)

Life is always changing, for sure.

I remembered this guy told me early on, in a meeting, that when change happened, I might get uncomfortable and want things back the way they were, but that if I would stay with the change and not try to get back to my comfort zone, pretty soon, it would be ok. Then he looked at me, and went, "You stay there!"

Butthead.

It helped me, though...I still hear him.

Really think it is cool how it helps, sometimes, if we just say what is going on....that still amazes me.

Do you like the new place?

I hated the packing up part...always kind of liked the unpacking part...am real odd, I guess.

Good luck with the move!!!

Sam

[blossom]

Thankyou Everyone for your kind words, it's lovely to have that support from you all!

And i took the suggestion of one box at a time and the task suddenly seemed more manageable ;D

Just like you Sam, i really enjoy the unpacking part and putting everything away and making it a home, rather than a house....The house i'm moving to is lovely, i am always grateful today for the things i used to take such for granted, like a home and while it is a touch smaller inside the garden is much bigger, which is one of my favourite places to be working - and it's got a nice project for me to work on ;D

Thanks again everyone
Love Blosoom x

[samf]

Gosh, Blossom, it sounds beautiful! Am real happy for you!

Sam

[Eddie]

So I imagine moving day has come and gone. Now the change begins in earnest, where is everything, which way do I go to work, where is the nearest grocery store. When I moved the last time I found these little changes sort of a short adventure. When I found a new way to work, I was happy as now I could adjust the boring when I wanted to, I found a newer and better grocery store than I was used to. All in all it was fun.

I helped my niece and nephew move into a house not far from where I live this last Monday. They were getting a little stressed over the small things when I got there. I started having fun with moving the boxes in, I thought I was being funny but I actually wanted to distract them from the stress that they were beginning to show. I said how I liked their house, how big it was, etc. I kept on rambling and the distraction started to work. I had to laugh as i looked in a cupboard and did the old Sa Right, Ok you have a good night and closed the cupboard door. Who's in there they asked, I don't know and I laughed. They actually thought I was talking to someone. When I left them that night they were smiling and the stress seemed to have left.

Hope everything worked out with the move.

Good Luck

[samf]

Eddie, hey...just got through reading your posts and wanted to say how good it was for me to read everything...funny how we are all so much alike. So glad you're here!

Blossom, how is it going?

Big hugs!

Sam