I really need help.

[Aykaie]

I am 42 years old, divorced, two children ages 16 and 12. I have lived with my b/f for 3-1/2 years and alcohol has finally destroyed our relationship. I drink every night and if he does something I don't think is right, I fly into a rage. My children witnessed this tuesday night and left the house to go to their friends. My b/f left and I says he wants nothing to do with me.

I called a treament center and was told I need to go through detox. I am scared. I want to do this but I am terrified of the center, I don't know if its any good, I am just scared. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

I live in Pennsylvania, Montgomery County.

[CarolD]

:D? ?I? just replied to your? other post? Aykaie ...

De tox? is? a wise? move.? dea.? Having? aid? from? professionals? is? snart...Good? for? you!

Congratulations? on? choosing? a sober life
It? ? rocks!

[Aykaie]

Thank you! This is a really nice place.
I'm glad I came here.
It was really hard for me to admit that I had a problem.

[jojo*41]

Hello there:
Well I guess it is about time for re hab. I did it. I was scarred to, but today I am grateful. No more of the drunken nights of fighting and crying, no more of wondering if i still have a boyfriend, all of that pain is gone thanks to going into re hab and starting my new life sobre. My only advice to you is to help yourself, by just going into re hab. After you are done your stint there, life will become very different if you want it to. Sobriety has many gifts to offer, but you must do what is required in order to have this freedom, and going to re hab is the first requirment. After that all you have to do is stay away from the first drink, the ex, and attend many meetings in your area as possible. Find a sponsor, a woman, and begin on your new journey to freedom. I never thought for once on my life that I could even stop drinking, that I could actually love myself, that i could have friends who care about me and not just what I could give them. These are only a few of the gifts that AA has given me, you to can have these and many more as long as you let go of the fear of re hab, and embrace the journey. Be scarred, but know that the light at the end of tunnel is where you will be saved, I can almost assure you that the others at re hab will have the same fears, you can work through them with the help of others. Start your journey being positive, I know this may be hard, but try your hardest to see a bright future of happiness in your mind. Concentrate on this vision and it will come true, but remember to stay away from that first drink. It is time to stop running.
your friend jojo