i am going to die soon (help)

[KeronM]

i am an alcoholic, and a coke addict, the coke helps me stay up for days on end to be drunk, been coming to AA for 4 years, and i am scared for my life, and i am scared of hurting others

[KeronM]

My AIM is Keronicalbirdses, if anybody has any epereince strenght or hope, i sure could use it

[KeronM]

anyone, i am begging here

[samf]

Keron, hi.
I used to do drugs and am a drunk, too. I didn't know how to get out, either, and felt really lucky in a way that they finally arrested me. By then I really wanted to stop.
I didn't know how to get away from the people I hung out with and the whole thing was pretty scary to me.
I had gotten to where I actually felt pretty afraid that someone would do me in if I left. Maybe I was more paranoid than anything, but I don't know.
Anyway, I don't know what you should do.
The only thing I CAN think of, is maybe moving away from where you are and starting over somewhere else. (If you did that, I would also join AA or CA or NA.,..go to meetings and get started in your recovery.)
Or if there is strong NA or CA (an excellent program), where you live, they may be able to offer more solutions for you than I can think of, right now.
Hope you will feel free to keep writing and sharing with us, if you need to.
Said a prayer and am hoping and praying, for you today.

Samf

[CarolD]

Welcome!? ? :D

If? you? ? ?mean dying? from drugs/ alcohol
see? a? doctor and get off? the? substances.
As? you are dually? addicted...medical? supervision
is? the? way? to go.

Take care..

[kelly k]

one hope filled thing about recovery is the opportunity to know that when people say'i get it' they mean it...realize that this addiction, whether its drugs or alcohol,love us more when were alone...have you been to a meeting since yesterday? dont let the cunning and powerful part of all of this tell you that meetings are not for you,that your different, or that they dont matter-this is about making a connection with another human soul face to face- this in some ways is the easy part-anonymously...please take some action today. we cant walk in the sunlight of the spirit, when we refuse to leave the dark-let me know what you willdo,or are doing with your courage today.Thats all we have-today, dipped in courage. please post again, so you dont get lost...take care, kelly

[jojo*41]

I can sense your troubles, I too once was the same way. I thought I had no way out, I was afraid to live and afraid to die. I had to do something, but what was the question. I found a sponsor to help me recover from drugs and booze, it was real hard in the beginning but look I am writing to you, I am alive. I spent many a years in blackness and found myself in that horrible tunnel. You can be free of this darkness, you must know that, try praying, it may seem funny at first but just try. I have faith in you, I have faith that you will not die, otherwise you would not be sending your message out for us to help you. Go back to the beginning of the steps, do them over, do them over with grace and strength...if need be find a stronger sponsor, sometimes we need to look a little harder to see the right one. Prayer helps with that too! I will pray for you, and ask God to give you the courage to go on. I hope I have helped you in some way that your spirit has a little light on.
Your friend jojo