CarolD
04-25-2006, 05:15 AM
Carol D. DOS 4-25-89
Ah Yes ....
Booze Free Love Drugs and Rock and Roll
Anyone else remember the `60`s?
That was the decade that started my downward spiral into
alcoholism. I functioned quite well for many years. I knew I
was an alcoholic long before I tried to quit. My children lived with
my parents...my friends all drank excessively...my finances were in good shape.....
I worked in the hospitality industry where drinking was the norm.
Why Quit? Well....
I detested the woman I had become. I was depressed and did
not know why. I was trapped on the misery-go-round. I drank for fun and
it was no longer fun. I drank to feel less guilt and surrounded my self
with the dark despair of addiction. My soul had withered and died ...drowned with liquor.
After 3 suicide tries, 3 mental hospitals stays, years of therapy..... I still drank
In Total Desperation
I started AA. And still I drank. I was in and out of AA...
up and down like a damned yo-yo. WHY did I still drink?
Then I read a book..." Under The Influence" that explained me that I suffered
from a disease. EUREKA! I was not weak willed or nutso or demon driven.
Gosh! I was ill. I used the information there plus a renewed connection to my God and AA....
I Finally Found Sobriety!!
What a wonderful journey this has been! Showers of blessings! I can talk for hours
about the joy and sense of purpose recovery has given me.
For those still suffering ...for any who question....who see no way out of the chaos..
Please never give up...come join the winners in AA. There is HOPE and understanding
to help you recover from our horrendous disease.
Thanks for letting me share my story... ;D
Ah Yes ....
Booze Free Love Drugs and Rock and Roll
Anyone else remember the `60`s?
That was the decade that started my downward spiral into
alcoholism. I functioned quite well for many years. I knew I
was an alcoholic long before I tried to quit. My children lived with
my parents...my friends all drank excessively...my finances were in good shape.....
I worked in the hospitality industry where drinking was the norm.
Why Quit? Well....
I detested the woman I had become. I was depressed and did
not know why. I was trapped on the misery-go-round. I drank for fun and
it was no longer fun. I drank to feel less guilt and surrounded my self
with the dark despair of addiction. My soul had withered and died ...drowned with liquor.
After 3 suicide tries, 3 mental hospitals stays, years of therapy..... I still drank
In Total Desperation
I started AA. And still I drank. I was in and out of AA...
up and down like a damned yo-yo. WHY did I still drink?
Then I read a book..." Under The Influence" that explained me that I suffered
from a disease. EUREKA! I was not weak willed or nutso or demon driven.
Gosh! I was ill. I used the information there plus a renewed connection to my God and AA....
I Finally Found Sobriety!!
What a wonderful journey this has been! Showers of blessings! I can talk for hours
about the joy and sense of purpose recovery has given me.
For those still suffering ...for any who question....who see no way out of the chaos..
Please never give up...come join the winners in AA. There is HOPE and understanding
to help you recover from our horrendous disease.
Thanks for letting me share my story... ;D