Introducing myself and have to get sober NOW

[foraria]

Hello everyone. I'm an alcoholic. I have been relapsing for nearly a year now, and the consequences have begun to show. As of now, if I don't get sober, I very well may lose my daughter who is the one thing in my life that I am proud of and who I care for more than anything. I know that I would literally die if this happened, and I'm using this possibility as the motivation to get sober and stay sober once again. She is the thing that kept me sober for 4 1/2 years before when she was born, and now a year later, she is my reason again. I am scared to death of the possibility yet know that it's a very real threat because of my own behavior. I want to be sober right now. And as of now I never want to drink again - but I also know that over the past year I've said that many, many times and have always wound up drinking again. I must get sober because I cannot live without my daughter. I simply cannot. If it means jeopardizing my job by going into treatment, I will do it - whatever it takes to keep my daughter.

[WolfM]

Dear Foraria,
Nothing, not threat of job loss, threat of loss of family, threat of death... NOTHING would make me stop drinking until I admitted that my life had become unmanageable. When I took step one, then, and only then could I do something about MY problem which was me and my drinking.
Once I had surrendered, then I had to put my staying sober before anything else. Before my job, before my family, before everything. My sobriety, my problem, had to be MINE and no one elses. If I put my sobriety on someone or something else, I was relieiving myself of the responsibility. My wife and I argued about this extensively. I told her that if I got sober for her, the next time she made me mad, I would get drunk and it would be her fault. But if I got sober for me, I would have no one else to blame for my drinking again, no matter what. You will do what is best for you I am sure, but please get sober for you, and no one else. If you stay sober, those around you will reap the benefits.
Meetings, Big Book, Sponsor, Steps. That is how I have stayed sober. It is a simple program but not an easy program. Get hooked up with AA and you will not be sorry.

Wolf M

[samf]

Hi, Foraria, and welcome!

How are you doing, today?

Do you attend AA meetings where you are, or are you maybe willing to? Where I first got sober, there were a lot of meetings, and I went to them.

You can always get a temporary sponsor, if you want to, and start through the steps, with them helping you walk though them. You may or may not end up with the same sponsor, always, or a different sponsor.

I think if there are meetings close to you, and you walked into one, and shared as you did, here, people would be more than willing to help...and to keep coming back to it.

If there's anything you want to talk about or anything I can personally do, let me know, too.

Glad you are here.

Sending a hug.

Love,

Sam

[k8]

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[k8]

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